awake at 3:54

I'm still here, in my room, it's late at night and instead of being asleep, I'm just crying, no reason for it, but I wish you could just understand what I feel, and not judge me, you're not inside of me to feel my hurt. Aww how I wish I could go back in time and bring back all the things I lost thanks to what happened, but I can't blame him forever... And this can't last forever, no I will not forget him, but I just wanna make him proud of who I am, but it gets harder everyday, As I wish I could just go away for a while and come back without any change in time, just be apart of this world for a second , but that's impossible I'm still the same, and nothings going to change... But everybody blames me, cause I'm that type of girl, who hides her real feelings from the ones who really love her, but why do I do that? Cause I'm selfish, I wanna cry alone, I don't need people asking me all the time ''what's wrong?', and faking a smile I say ''nothing''. But my heart gets full of something I don't know, when I cry, feels like it's going to explode. I've been crying my eyes out, begging God, to help me out, but I don't get an answer or a signal, only feel like everything keeps getting worse, feels like my life is upside down, nothings gonna change. I loose my faith, I get it back and loose it again.

But life is not just bad things, only when it comes to write here I remember all those things, so yeah that's all. And the him, I talk about is someone that I still Love, and will never forget.

I love you daddy♥

xox Annie <><